November

Gorging disorder group has ended. It had it help on me, but mainly it just confused me all the time. I'm more thorn right now then what I was before the group. Now I some how don't think that I'm gorging food, I think more like, how little do I eat and on the other hand I think that I eat a lot and fast and without thinking. I'm so confuse right now. But I do realize that I was in different situation than rest of the group members. They all were in working life and have families. I was only one who had been out of work for ten years, had mental health problems. One thing I did learn and that was that I have been so isolated here in my home and overall in my life that I had totally different perspective to see thing then they do. They think more like my mom and my friends. Well this once again shows how different I'm to compare to other people. I'm naive, gullible, childish, narrow-minded, narrow-sighted, and many more not so flattered feature when it comes reality of the world. Well any case, now day after tomorrow I got eating disorder clinics doctor appointment and I really try to get to second gorging disorder group, so that I can continue my journey towards healthier eating habits. This group meets up 17 times, once a week. I really hope I can make it, but I'm afraid that because of my sleeping troubles did back fire on me in this group, that it would do the same in sequel group. And I did kind of got lazy after third meeting, and I didn't go to fourth meeting because I did slept in. After that everything has been hard. I didn't manage to keep in weekly goals and there for proceed in progress and in program.

WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY ~ PAINON SEURANTA

In here i write my weight loss journey and i will update it always as newest blog. 
Weight in day will always be monday right in the morning when i woke up, just
the way the starting weight has been taken. 

Tähän kirjaan painon seurantani ja päivitän sen aina uusimmaksi kirjoitukseksi. Punnituspäivä tulee olemaan maanantai heti aamusta ennen syömisiä, aivan kuten alkupainokin oli otettu.

Date                  Weight             +/-

2.1.2017             151,6kg            lähtöpaino

9.1.2017             148,9kg            - 2,7kg

16.1.2017           149,5kg            + 0,6kg

23.1.2017           150,2kg            + 0,7kg
30.1.2017           148,4kg            - 1,8kg
6.2.2017             146,7kg            - 1,7kg
13.2.2017           151,1kg            + 4,6kg
20.2.2017           148,8kg            - 1,3kg
27.2.2017           148,0kg            - 0,8kg
6.3.2017             149,8kg            + 0,8kg
13.3.2017           150,1kg            + 0,3kg
20.3.2017           152,1kg            + 2,0kg
23.3.2017           153,1kg            + 1,0kg (torstai extra punnitus)
27.3.2017           149,9kg            - 3,2kg
3.4.2017             150,6kg            + 0,7kg
10.4.2017           150,0kg            - 0,6kg
17.4.2017           151,8kg            + 1,8kg
24.4.2017           148,1kg            - 3,7kg
1.5.2017             148,5kg            + 0,5kg
8.5.2017             150,1kg            + 1,6kg
15.5.2017           151,3kg            + 1,2kg
22.5.2017           150,2kg            - 1,1kg
29.5.2017           152,8kg            + 2,6kg
5.6.2017             151,3kg            - 1,5kg
12.6.2017           153,3kg            + 2,0kg
19.6.2017           ?
26.6.2017           153,0kg            -0,3kg
3.7.2017             ?
10.7.2017          153,5kg             + 0,5kg
17.7.2017          154,6kg             + 1,1kg
20.7.2017          155,0kg             + 0,4kg
24.7.2017          153,0kg             - 2,0kg
31.7.2017           153,3kg             +0,3kg
7.8.2017            150,9kg             - 2,4kg
14.8.2017           154,6kg             +3,7kg
21.8.2017           153,6kg             -1,0kg
28.8.2017           154,0kg             +0,4kg
4.9.2017             152,6kg             -1,4kg
11.9.2017            155,2kg             +2,6kg
18.9.2017           153,4kg             -1,8kg
25.9.2017           151,7kg             -1,7kg
gorging disorder group not allow to weigh my self in 28.9 until 2.11
2.10.2017           ?
9.10.2017           ?
16.10.2017         ?
23.10.2017         ?
30.10.2017         ?
6.11.2017           153,9kg              +2,2kg
13.11.2017
20.11.2017
27.11.2017